Girlishly (Urdu)

Ek Chhoti si zindagi me Kitne ghamon se hum Guzar jaate hain, Yakeenan kitni baar, marr kar Wapas aa jaate hain, Ajeeb dastaanon me Ulajh jaate hain, Naye kirdaaron me Simat jaate hain, Armanon ki aag me Sulag jaate hain, Aur kabhi kabhi toh, Khud se bichhad kar bhi Laut aate hain

Kuchh mulakaatein  muqammal nahin hoti, kuchh khwahishein poori nahi hoti, E dil tu haar mat maan, Ye zindagi hai Asaan nahi hoti, Kuchh lamhon me qaid Jaise alfaaz hain, Lafzon ki jihnhe zaroorat nahi Yeh wo raaz hain, Mumkin nahi hamesha  Intezaar, ae  jaani, kyunki har safar ki shaam nahi hoti

Kayi armaan hain Jo soye huye se hain, Kayi alfaaz hain Jo khoye huye se hain, Kabhi apne andar ki  Lou ko parakh Milenge kayi jazbaat  Jo uljhe huye se hain, Ek aghaaz hai Jo tere darr pe thehra hua hai, Ek anjaam hai Jo tujhse bichadne ko baitha hua hai, Kabhi to aaiyne me Khud ko dhundh Koi to nashaa hai Jo machalne ko baitha hua hai, Jis aag me tu barson jalaa, Jis dhun ko tune arson palaa, Chhod de piche wo sab Jahan se tujhe sirf nikala, Uss gali se nikal, Inn hawaaon me dhal, Gehre samandar ki tarah Kabhi to uchhal.

Manaa hum qareeb nahi Magar kyun socha yai tune Ki tu mujhe azeez nahi ? Mana dilon me malaal hai Magar kyun lagta hai tujhe Ki sirf tera hi bura haal hai ? Mana ek parchayi hai zindagi Magar kyun nahi maani tune Tere dil ki zubaan kabhi ? Mana hum alag hain Magar kyun nahi bataya tune Ki isme kya galat hai ? Mana ye kashmakash kuchh ajeeb hai Magar kyun nahi bhulaayi tune Wo baat jo dil ke qareeb hai?  Mana jawaab kahin nahi hain Magar kyun nahi puche tune Wo sawal jo sahi hain ? Mana ye duniya ki aabroo hai  Magar kyun nahi chhudaya tune Inn makrooh ki zanjishon se ? Mana inteqaam nahi ye Magar kyun nahi pukara tune Uss be-waqt ki maujudgi me ? Mana mukammal nahi har ishq Magar kyun nahi jaana tune Haqeeqat-e-justajoo ki aarzoo ko ?

Teri berukhi me Chhupe huye kai jawaab hain, Ham nadaan nahi Magar tu kahan kharaab hai Kuchh dard bhare sawaal  Jab kiye apne aap se, Jawaab aaye kayii Umeedon ke hisaab se Ehsaan nahi aapka Madad naam dijiye, Insaan hain aap Khuda mat samajhiye Maana waqt bura hai Kabhi hamara to kabhi aapka Badalta bhi to wahi hai Na thehra wo kisi raat ka, Shikayatein nahi Ehsaas bayaan karte hain, Gaur farmaaiyye Aapko bhi yaad karte hain Baithiye kisi kinaare Bewaqt saath hamare, Musafir hi to hain, Samajhiye zara ishaare.

Ae humraahi tere liye mere dil  me tanhaayi aur saason me chubhan hai, tere intezaar me meri aankhen bhar aayi hain.   kabhi aa bhi jaa meri raahon mein bagair matlab, warna matlab se to duniya mein sirf ruswaii hai.   Ye khalish, Ye koshish, Ye sawaal, Ye raahen, Faqat tere liye Inme chamak aayi hai.   Mere aas-paas se kabhi to guzar, tere intezaar me maine bhi to neendein gawaayi hain.

Uss zakham ko tumne fir se chua, Jo kayii deeno se tha dabaa hua, Jiski narmi kuch ho gayi thi sakht Aur khushki ne thi uski jagah li har waqt Kyun ye jasbaat hame kuch keh jaayen, Kaise hum inme beh jaayen, Sambhala nazon se tha humne inhe, Kaise tumpe yakeen fir kar jayen Ye faasle nahin, Na hi ye dooriyan hain, Na inhe majbooriyan kehna, Kyunki, Ye to wo lamhon ke faisle hain, Jinhen dil jee to gaya, Magar mohabbat ke naam par, Wo humse khafaa ho gaya Hum jasbaati hain, Awaraa nahi, Dil masoom hai, Magar majboor nahi, Ye ilzaam hum nahi lenge, Ki hamne tumhe pukara nahi Ye baat tumhe aaj bhi gawara nahi, Ke hamne tumhari arzoo ko sawara nahi, Waaden kiye the anginat, Lekin unka pura karna, Tumhe bewajah laga zaroori nahi Keh gaye tum wo sab, Jo mere dil me qaid tha, Farmaish kare bina, Azmaish kare bina, Unn bewaqt ki baaton ki, Jihne humse hi sirf bair tha .

Haar maankar kahan jayen, Abhi to jazbaaton ne Pichha chhoda hi nahin, Aur halaaton ne Pura nichoda hi nahin, Laut ate hain wo jazbaat, Jinhe hamne puri tarah Jhinjhoda hi nahin,   Kabhi wo puchte hain, To kabhi meri aur dekhte hain, Haal maloom karne wo mera, Aankhon me kuchh dhundte hain,   Kuch milta nahi To aansun bankar beh jaate hain, Aur kuchh mil jaaye to Dil me bas kar reh jaate hain,   Kabhi halaat to kabhi jazbaat Ke maare hain hum Janaab, Warna inn khushiyon se naate Humne bhi khoob jaane hain.

Tera ye jo mijaaz hai Badaa hi la-jawaab hai, Ye ankahin si baaten Jo aankhon se jhaankti hain, Ye unsuni si aahen Jo raaton ko jaagti hain, Ye muskurahat Jo khoyi hui si hai, Ye hoton ki thar-tharaa-hat Jo jaagi hui si hai, Ye wo paigham hain Jo lekar aate hain Kayi haseen raaton ke hisse Jo hain ab sirf kissen, Ye wo rang hain zindagi ke, Hum sab ne jo jiye hain, Palkon par mehfooz fir bhi Chand log hi rakhte hain.

Ye jo dhundli si raat hai Kuchh khaas si hai, Kehti baatein kuch Udaas si hai, Kabhi theherti  Kabhi b haagti si hai, Machalti hui ek Machhli si hai, Mere ird gird ghumkar Kuchh dhundh rahi hai, Jaise kisi qaid panchhi ko Chuum rahi hai, Apni bekhauf baahen khole Ye mujhe bulaati hai, Gehri soch ke manzar Kuchh dikhati hai, Palak jhapakti bhi nahi Ke ye gale laga leti hai, Meri kayi raaton ki neend Ko udaa deti hai.

Jo jung hame jitni hai  Wo apne aap se hai, Ye zindagi bhar suni, Us awaaz se hai, Ise kaiyyon ne tarasha hai, Fir bhi lagta kuch adhura sa hai, Ye wo buland awaaz nahi, Jo parcham lehrati hai, Balke wo awaaz hai, Jo chupchaap Ladd jati hai, Koshish har baar hai karti, Jeet hamesha nahi milti, Lekin ye zidd hai aisi, Ise haar nahi khalti

Kuchh unn hawaaon me Nashaa tha, Aur kuchh hamari bhi Khataa thi, Kuchh fizaaon me ghula sa Samaa tha, To kuchh unki nazron ki Adaa thi, Humko kuchh ese Behhka diya, Jaise kisi sheeshe Ko bikher diya, Jaise kisi dil Ko machla diya, Wo bolte rahe Hum sunte rahe, Wo samjhate gaye Hum samjhte gaye, Unka bulana jaise Apna saa laga, Dil ko behlana jaise Koi sapna sa laga, Koshish hamari rahi Ke mohabbat na ho jaaye, Na-kaam unhone yun kardi, Ki kahin dosti naa kho jaaye .

Dil kehta hai Awaaz bann jaaun, Tuti hui muraadon ki Buniyaad bann jaaun, Yun to aur bhi bohot kuch Kehta hai dil, Par kabhi lagta hai, Ek aghaaz bann jaaun, Armaan kayi dabe hue hain Meri hasrat mei, Sochti hun main ye Har uss waqt me, Jo karwaate hain mujhe waqif Beshaq saahil se, Doobti meri kashti  Ho jaati fanaah jis mehfil me, Waqt ka taghaza kahun Ya mausam ki bouchhaar, Ise main apni qismat bataun Ya dil ki pukaar, Inn jaagti ummeedon ke baare me Kya bataun janab, Inhe to kabhi kabhi  Meri razaa bhi lagti hai bekaar, Aaiyna hun me Uss faryaad ka, Jo nikalti hai Uss muqaam pe, Arsaa ho gaya jisko Dil behlate hue kaam pe, Mujhse nazar na pherna, meri aankhon me dekhna, Naa mile agar wo darya-dili, To apne aap me jhaankna.

Meri besakht-dili ka aalam Kuchh aisa hai, Ki har shaks mujhse Ulajhne se darta hai, Wo yun sochte  Mere jawaabon par, Ke isse acchha to  Bebaaq kahin se koodna hai, Main waaqif hun unn khayalon se Aur unme gunjte sawalon se, Meri majboori kuchh aisi hai Samjhana mushkil jazbaa hai, Manzoor hai  zamaane ki  Nafrat mujhe Uss mohabbat ke aage, Jo tabaah kare To kuchh uss andaz mein ke zamaana bhi sochta rahe Ghash khaake, Lihaaz rakhna waajib hai Uss ghuroor ke aage, Jisne dafnaa diya apnon ko Apni aankhon ke saamne.

Ye awaargi meri, Ye gustakhi teri, Ye khamoshi meri, Ye bekhauf-dili teri, Kya khoob mehekti hai, Kya khoob chehekti hai, Ye aankhon ki tashnagi, Ye nazron ki bekhudi, Jinme base kayi khwaab hain, Lagta jaise kayii baagh hain, Khilte hue phool jinme Mehekte hue mehtaab hain, Kya raaz hain ye zindagi ke, Jaise behte dariyaa ki khamoshi, Jaise udte parindon ki behonshi, Jaise kisi dil ki gehraayi, Jaise kisi shaks ki parchaayi, Samajh aa jaaye agar hame sab Kya maqsad lekar jiyenge hum, Ye zindagi bhar ki talaash hai, Kuch lamhon me kaise samjhenge hum.

Kyun tumne hame yun toda Kaise itni assani se chhoda, Kyun bhool gaye wo sab Jo hamne kiya tha, Kaise peeche chhod gaye Wo saaya Jo beshaq tumhara tha, Jin halaaton se hum lade, Jis rishte ke liye sab sahe, Itni be-rehmi se kaise, Tum humpe ye sitam kar gaye, Yakeen aaye to kaise Jee behlaayen to kaise Koi samjhaaye to kaise Kisi aur se dil lagaayen to Kaise! Bas ye bata do Kami kya thi, Uss mohabbat ki Ghalti kya thi, Jo hum tumse yun bewajaah Kar gaye, Jaise apnon se daghaa kar gaye, Agar fir mil jaao kisi mod par To muskurana mat, Apnepan ka ehsaas Jataana mat, Aise dekhna  Jaise koi naya shaks ho, Uss bujhi hui aag ko Sulgaana mat.

Meri Bardaasht ko Meri nadaangi samajhne wale Kya taarif karun teri, Meri Khoobsurti ko Meri Taaqat samajhne wale Kya taarif karun teri, Meri naasamjhi ko Meri kamzori samajhne wale Kya taarif karun teri, Meri Samajh ko Mera Hatiyaar samajhne wale Kya taarif karun teri, Meri Mohabbat ko Meri aadat samajhne wale Kya taarif karun teri, Meri Tanhaayi ko Mera akelapan samajhne wale Kya taarif karun teri, Meri Kamyaabi ko Mera Ghuroor samajhne wale Kya taarif karun teri, Meri Pehchaan ko Meri Shaksiyat samajhne wale Kya taarif karun teri, Meri Adaaon ko Meri Tarqeeb samajhne wale Kya taarif karun teri, Meri Kamiyon ko Meri Ghaltiyan samajhne wale Kya taarif karun teri, Aur meri Taqdeer ko Muqammal hota dekh, Hosh kho dene wale, Kya taarif karun teri.

Jaan tujhpe waaru Yaa yeh saasen, Dil kholke dikhaun Yaa teri ban Jaun, Bata tujhe kaise samjhaaun Kitna beshumaar tujhe chahun, Ye bataa is aalam mein, Tera nasha hai ya meri khata, Teri arzoo hai ya meri justajoo, Teri aankhen hain ya mere nazaare, Teri dua hai ya meri azaane, Agar ye munaasib hai Ke zindagi ke baad bhi waajib hai, Ishq karna aur nibhaana, To mera wadaa hai Tujhse aur teri yaadon se, Milenge hum un waadiyon me, Jahan jeena marna sirf hai ek tamashaa.